Kyra Le'mmont

I'm severely depressed, my treatments are barely working and I see no reason to keep going in life, so I play this, on and on... but even this is not fun anymore. Sometimes I can't even get out of bed or turn on the computer...

I would kill myself, but my desire to live forever is just as strong, if not stronger, than my will to die. Besides that, all I can do is wait for treatment to work and try to do anything when I have the energy.

I'm lost and everything I ever liked, loved or desired still exists, but my will to go for them is no more... I've given up.

I won't kill myself, but I'm definetely just waiting to die.

I wrote this here because, I'm tired of talking to shrinks, psychologists, friends. It's tiresome even thinking about having to tell my story to my new psychiatrist... but I try, because I don't wanna die, as dead as I am.